Sunday, April 27, 2014

Nothingness..

By the river, on a log of wood I sit. Except the sound of the flow, there is nothing but calm,
Oblivion on my mind, life goes back to the things that made a difference,
It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Except the beauty of nature, nothing in eternity would satisfy my thirsty soul,
Works like a magical herb and gives the courage to continue the life whole,
It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Believer of the challenger, so have I always been,
Sometimes defeat and an odd win, went on to build my character within,
It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Played it fair always, respected the deserving always, followed the right always,
Thought maybe karma would follow suit, it came around like it always does,
It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Love made it almost impossible, to turnaround and comeback,
Scars made it possible to face the next morning standing on my own strength,
It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Maybe that is all it has been or maybe more,

It is these things in life and the larger change they bring.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

The Path…

           
    It was lush green, the mountains with the monsoon giving them life, fog all around. Saw the natives sowing seeds for a crop. Heart was joyous in the midst of nature. It always asks for so little, yet we all strive so hard but always in the wrong way. Never wanted this path to end, because the journey through felt better then the destination.

We all have a point of time in life from where we have an option of choosing our paths. The path to our best is always as tedious as getting on top of a mountain, but we all know how beautiful that walk is throughout. It’s called the path of our ‘Dreams’.  Our trust, our values, our conscious tested at every curve. It pulls you out of your comforts, makes you strive hard for survival.  Our soul accepts the wounds. Because it’s the only path that gives a meaning to life, all the other ways are mere illusions and are incomplete.

A very few, who like to take on the path of ‘Dreams’, enjoying every bit of it. These Wanderers of Life have a lust for the path throughout. The destination is only the end, the tip of satisfaction. Most of us fall for the common path, the one with illusions. Which means striving for satisfaction on the most unsatisfying path. Dreary isn’t it, yet taken by most of us. It’s only a few who take the path ‘Uncommon’ among the common. 

We all need to find that path.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Stars and my Heart


Alcohol had started entering the veins, setting the head on a trip. There was no sound except the song of the waves. It was a beach with the virgin sand all around. Buoys with led lights could be seen blinking in the sea with no source of light other than the moon supporting them. Lying on the nets of a fishing boat just besides the shore felt nice. It was mid night as the world had started to count the last few hours of the year gone by.

Just realized that I had been staring at the stars for sometime now. The sky was clear and it had been a long time looking at the open sky. Then came a sound from the sky as if the almighty started speaking to me. I was not in a position to make a difference between illusion and reality. Hence thought of enjoying whatever happened. Soon it turned into a conversation between me and God. We spoke about the world matters and various other challenges it faced. Seemed as if two friends were talking to each other, at their favorite hangout over drinks. Soon enough we started about our personal experiences with life. Some of them good and some bad.

Spoke about my dreams, so openly for the first time. Clarity of mind through discussion gave its presence. Opening up here felt so heavenly, which felt good and the mind had become even lighter. In the meantime, the brain was penning down the vision of life subconsciously.

All in all, I was enjoying the treat. Away from the stupid city way of celebrating the New Year. Here, I loved the nature and in return the nature loved me even more. What more would a human being ask for. Nothing but nature gave me my much needed break and solace. Here I was with the stars as my cover and the sand as my bed, It felt really good.  Its true, nature heals.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

My Part of Love ..



Love is what I mean, A Life is all I ask for,
It has to be love, which makes me feel being alive


When u smile, I wanna feel the cold breeze
When u laugh, I wanna feel the thunder rains
When u cry, I wanna feel the pain
If its love, Its worth a try
Coz Love is what I mean, A Life is all I ask for


I’ve been living in darkness, searching for a place called nowhere
It has to be you, who can bring me light
It has to be you, who can show me the way right
It has to be you, whom Im gonna spend my life with
Coz love is that I need, A Life is all I ask for


Listening to your thoughts and songs,
Sharing my secret prongs,
Getting addicted to your stories behind,
Would make our evenings end light,
A glass of wine before the world enters slumber,
We will make sure of no encumber.


Waiting for that Autumn and Spring,
Where no one else, but you and me fly like a wing,
Have been breathing for those walks on the beach,
With the stars giving the sky a grey bleach,
Would love to rest by wrapping you in my arms,
And die for those eternal winter calms.


Coz love is that I need, A Life is all I ask for

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Fast Local

Travelling by a local train is an integral part of life for people living in and around Mumbai. Catching the same train everyday is a kind of task every Mumbaikar wants to complete and the reasons differ. Sometimes you may come across people or instances which leave a mark on your thoughts even in such a so called busy life. One of those instances happened with me.

A guy in his late teens, entered the First Class compartment along with me. This is the usual Fast Local I catch from Dadar to reach Andheri. The guy looked a bit relaxed at first, took a seat in the opposite to which the train was running. Others began to watch him as if he was from another planet, the reason was he was not as neatly dressed as they were, he had a small torn bag and was drenched with sweat as if he had just completed a Marathon (Running through people to catch a train is no less than a Marathon).

He was from a place, where a large proportion of Mumbai's population lives, the slums.
This “Slumdog” sat at his place (I always refrain from addressing a person by this word, but a outsider has made this a synonym for the people living in slums), he watched the Working Class of Mumbai on the opposite seats with great amazement on his face. One of the person on the opposite side was reading an English broadsheet, the other was using his IPod touch and the third one was an old man speaking to someone on his high end mobile phone. I could see the aspirations on his face, an aspiration to reach their level of fulfillment of needs and not to be looked around as a thief just because of his clothes. Soon, he realized his mistake of boarding the wrong compartment.

I was watching this incident just 2 feet away from them (just because there is nothing to look outside as Mumbai wears its biggest eyesore in the morning when people on both sides of the railway tracks complete their morning chores).

One of the person came up to me and asked me to make the guy get up so that i can have a seat as I dint realize that I was the first person in waiting. For a moment I thought of doing so, but then a second long of thought stopped me instantly. I realized what I was doing, It was wrong. It was wrong to judge a person on the basis of their economic status. And I don’t know why, a corner of my heart wanted him to aspire ambitiously. After all, It was his/her Right and denying anyone’s Right is a crime.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

An Eternal Question

The Clock ticked 2.a.m and there was no sign of sleep. At First, random thoughts performed on the mind screen and made the night more uncomfortable. There was no rest even on earth’s coziest place. Suddenly the mind stopped and started to think about a single thing, which was more of a question, an eternal question. The question which is personal to everyone, a question untamed. ‘What is the one thing that makes you happy’, a thing which makes you tick.

Struck by the heaviest of questions, when the mind is supposed to wander in the heaven and dream about the possible along with the impossible way to achieve them. Arghh!!, why is the sleep so betraying today. Maybe coz this is important, maybe coz there was no time for this, while running around the probabilities. The question grew stronger and floodlight of feelings started to focus on the same. Uneasiness grew, breathe came in deep and at longer intervals. Then came in the options (the probabilities), a sudden relief came along. But the question still stood tall.

Is it money, is it relationships, is it success, is it fame … For God’s sake what is that one thing. Then, even during the time of such crisis, the mind decided to find the answer once and for all. The pursuit started at the unlikeliest of time. Instances, Experiences, Stories and Facts started flashing as if going on live. Some Problems resurfaced, Some Wounds unhealed; but for the first time the focus did not shift. This question had asked for consideration before, but the intensity never this strong, the determination not this sturdy.

Now, the mind began to solve the mystery of life. The tangled knots of life’s thread began to take its form. The actual reason, the mission of this journey called life began to find its place. The one thing that would give all the answers, a concern worth dedicating this life for. Eureka! Shouted the heart, agreed shouted the mind. For the first time, the mind did not weigh the profits against investments. This agreement gave life all it required; a night worth investing.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Tour de Xpressions

Well, It all started with a Competition. It was their last day of Semester Exams. Someone had to rush home, someone had plans to party and some people just wanted to catch up with their lost sleep. But, this bunch of friends had something else on their mind, the Competition.

They were supposed to send an entry for the same, the topic was close to their heart, they loved the concept. They almost completed their essay and went out to join a party with their other friends. Finishing touches were given to the essay just 15 minutes before the deadline and the mouse pointer clicked on SEND button. None of them was satisfied with their own inputs to the essay, they felt there was only a diffused ray of hope.

All of them were proved wrong, when they got shortlisted for the Final Round of the Competition at one of the Best Institutes of Management in India, the XIM Bhubaneshwar. Preparations for the Final Round and arrangement of railway tickets for the journey were put on High Priority, even during a busy week of Diwali. They got the tickets booked and after some days, they were on their way towards their destination. When they reached, they were in for a very Warm Welcome spiced up with Amazing Hospitality from the Host Institute and its Students.

They loved the place, the atmosphere, the people along with every small and big thing going around them. As they were the first to land up at the destination, they had ample of time to explore the nearby areas. On their way towards a nearby Wild Life Sanctuary, every house greeted them with bright, blazing colors. The colors lifted their spirits even more and they entered the sanctuary with high enthusiasm. After sighting Lions, White Tigers, Baboons, Monkeys, Alligators and various other members of the Animal Kingdom, they had covered almost half of the sanctuary. When, suddenly two of the friends were astonished to hear their third friend screaming at the top of her voice. It was a Pick-Pocket, people gathered around and within seconds the friends got hold of the convict and then tried to pull and drag the thief towards the Sanctuary Police Station. The native language was alien to them, but they understood some part of it. The constables were co-operative and they readily lodged a complaint. The initial interrogation started and Mr. Convict tried to take the constables for a ride. But, when one of them took notice of this, he knew that the convict was taking them from Utah to California by changing his statements within seconds.

The Inspector In-Charge was making them wait, the friends wanted some action to be taken against the thief. When the In-Charge arrived, his presence could be felt in the police station. He started his interrogation in true bollywood style. He dint let the convict take him for a ride. As Mr. Thief started uttering random words, a tight slap right across his face greeted him and then he started speaking everything , he also accepted the crime. The Friends were looking at the clock as they were still keen to see the rest of the park. But, the time did not permit them to do so. On their way back to the institute area, they discussed the whole incident and concluded on having a stronger faith in the system of the country.

This eventful day did not end here. Even God appreciated the Guts and Spirits of these friends with small gestures like appearing in front of them in the form of Omens and acknowledging their honesty and devotion to the cause. These signals in the form of Omens did not start here, but they had already started on their way to the destination. Now, It was time for the gala Inauguration of the event called ‘Expressions 2010’. The Glamour, The Enthusiasm, The Energy, The Creativity, The Innovation were all exploding in front of their eyes in every moment. The feeling was ecstatic. Fireworks followed by Night Long Celeberations ended the day. But, the team of friends did not lose their focus, their approach to the event was still running through various quality checks in the back of their mind. They went to sleep with some random ideas in their minds.

Day 1 of the visit to the village was all about interaction. Language and Connect being the major points of concern, they were accompanied by a person who knew the native language, a person from an NGO and one person as a volunteer from the institute. The whole day was used to interact with people and gather as much information possible about them, their occupation, their problems, the opportunities that they see, the kind of help they need etc. All three of them tried to interact with different kinds and level of people in the village, so as to get the broadest picture possible. They loved the work and they did not want to leave any stone unturned. When they reached the Institute in the evening, they thought of working on their project for some time and then think of going out and enjoying the rest of the night. Some minor difference of opinions turning into heated arguments ended them nowhere, maybe because everyone of them was tired physically and mentally. They thought of going out, they had their dinner, enjoyed the atmosphere, the spirit of celebration in the students from the host institute. After enjoying, they were afresh to do some work, so as to know their position after halftime. After long and strong discussions of a couple of hours, they knew their position and they also had a strategy for the next day. They still had some hours to enjoy the wild side of XIMB which was called ‘JLT’(Just Like That), which meant unlimited booze on the house and high quality pumping music to rock on, they sportingly did enjoy and then they returned to their respective rooms, to get some highly needed sleep.

Day 2 of the visit was the day, when they needed a breakthrough. Everything was done on War-room urgency in order to get each and every information required to implement the project. By the grace of God and their dedication they got what they had come for, it was important for the people of the village too. The People of the village, now considered them their own. They had placed their trust on them, they now also had some high expectations from them. The villagers had been betrayed in the past, but still they trusted these three. Maybe it was their only option or maybe they believed in them. Not even a single corner of the village was left unseen, every hamlet related to the village was also surveyed. On their way back, they all were in their own thoughts. Their energy was drained up, they decided to skip the part of enjoyment that day. As they had to prepare for the D-day, they had been up till the wee-hours of the morning to complete their presentation on the project.

All of them woke up at the set time. They rehearsed once and then took some time to get into their Professional attire. After all, the hard work was also supposed to be presented well. Draw of lots decided the sequence of presentations of the respective institutes. The host team was second and their team was the third to present. Their turn came, they presented and everything went on very well. They had presented as they wanted to. The Judges, the audience including the competing teams were awestruck. Some of the people in the audience had already decided, who was supposed to be the winner. All the teams completed their presentations, they all knew their goof-ups and the things that gave them a high. It was time for the results, the judges took their own time to decide the winners. They were supposed to judge the teams on various parameters which included innovativeness, presentation skills, ground level reality i.e. viability of the project and feasibility. The Judgment was ready, the Judges got up to announce the results. They tried to break the uneasy silence in the room, while announcing the results with some humour. The finalists felt everything the judges spoke before announcing the actual results as uncalled for statements or just fillers. But the judges did their job, they had build up the excitement even more. The Heartbeats had increased to the level to which they together could have produced some electricity. Deep long breaths, Prayers in minds of some were at their peak. Anyone in the room at that point of time could differentiate Optimists from Pessimists just by looking at the expressions on their faces.

The actual results were announced, the host team was the runner-up. Their hearts began to run a full-marathon; some of them even might have stopped breathing before listening to the code of the winning Institute. It was ‘C’, the team from Mumbai had won. The three friends had won. Their dedication, their hardwork and intelligence paid-off. Within a second the whole scene changed, three tense faces became ecstatic. The other finalists were atleast relieved. The audience was on their feet, the winners got a kind of standing ovation. Congratulations in the form of Wishes, Hugs and Handshakes were everywhere. Everything right from the Omens of sighting butterflies and owls everywhere, the journey, the visit to the village, the fights, the enjoyment, the hardwork, working till late last three nights went through their minds as a flashback. Anyone could hear their hearts saying, ‘It was worth it’. The signals from God had proved right, they won.

They had return tickets to Mumbai for the next day and they had the plan to party all night long, so as to end this whole journey on a high. One of their favorite singers was going to perform live in the institute arena, they made sure of being there in the institute during the performance. They enjoyed the performance, then they partied all night with their friends from the host institute. It was almost dawn now and they had to catch a train back to Mumbai in a couple of hours. They went back to their rooms, packed their bags and came down to say bye to their friends. Almost everyone, they had been friends with came out to see them off. They left the institute with a lot of fun-filled and sweet memories in their mind. They reached Mumbai, the next day afternoon and the journey ended…. But the zeal and enthusiasm is still burning…